| jackson. |
[Sep. 2nd, 2009|01:18 am] |
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it's 1am on a wednesday morning.
i'm scared.
i can hear It.
it's coming!
God help me please.
p.s. i pray this won't be my last letter. |
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| valentine's. |
[Feb. 14th, 2009|11:59 pm] |
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Oh, I wish I were a little bar soap!
Oh, I wish I were a little bar soap!
I'd go slippey slidey hidey
over everybody's hiney,
Oh, I wish I were a little bar soap! |
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| Desperate student calls for desperate measures. |
[Feb. 13th, 2009|05:14 pm] |
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Here's a try.
CGPA - Diploma in Banking and Financial Services:
3.087 / 4.0
GCE O-Levels (before CCA deductions):
L1R5: 19
L1R4: 15
PSLE:
225 / 300
SAT I (New):
Critical Reading: 550
Math: 630
Writing: 490
Total: 1670 / 2400
Co-curricular Activites (Polytechnic):
Distinction - 27
Co-curricular Activities (Secondary School):
C6 - 4
Other Qualifications:
- Provide GEMS Service - Statement of Attainment
- Oral Confidence Module - Distinction
- Financial Services Research Centre - Certificate of Achievement
I'm interested in ANY college, so all representatives please contact me at jacksonong89@hotmail.com.
Thank you.
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Yes, I know. I screwed up SAT. Might retake, we'll see :'( Please ignore writing section, most colleges do so please. And those endless reading comprehensions!
I shall blame the limited writing time and the invigilator who froze us with the air-conditioner.
Oh well, goodbye Ivies (HA not that I was thinking of getting in). |
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| blank. |
[Jan. 18th, 2009|03:11 am] |
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i am not happy.
i try so hard.
the harder the further i get.
i feel alone.
i hate where i'm going.
but i know this crash ain't going away. |
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| Jacob Black! |
[Jan. 9th, 2009|12:28 am] |
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yay! i just read that taylor lautner retains his role as Jacob Black!
i'm not a fan (<3 jackson rathbone / jasper), but he's been working so hard to keep his role. and that michael copon seems like an ass.
consider this spam. i can't sleep. went rachel's journal, and the 'shut up and let me go' keeps ringing in my head. ugh! |
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| 2009 new year resolution. |
[Jan. 1st, 2009|11:58 am] |
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this is my first (yes, first in my 19 years) new year resolution. i thought about it the whole last night.
- save enough for a fucking nose job.
plan: 4 months in between graduation and army enlistment, work and save (at least $6000). raise the remaining during army period. with a toned (lol hopefully) body and a fixed nose, i shall enter new school as an Adonis! - enter singapore management university.
plan: pray.
THAT'S ALL! |
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| Leon Jackson - Creative |
[Dec. 2nd, 2008|11:03 pm] |
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talented Leon Jackson's latest single!
EDIT: pause for abit at the front, bebo is very slow. |
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| twilight. |
[Nov. 27th, 2008|09:37 pm] |
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i finally bought a copy of twilight! i know i'm a late bloomer. HAHA and i spent like 10 minutes in the bookstore deciding which one of the three covers i want (bought the original cover because movie covers are for kids ha) >=( 
i have no purpose in posting this, just wanna show off. ok, off to enjoy!
p.s. i need someone to watch the movie with me when it's out, xoxo. |
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| Paris For President |
[Oct. 28th, 2008|05:41 pm] |
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I'm Jackson and I Approve This Message. |
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| i'm sorry. |
[Oct. 21st, 2008|05:04 am] |
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i had always urged to write this, but never had the courage to. for many years, i wanted to say sorry.
to benedict: i remember when mrs. daryanani told me to get you and tai long (funny how i manage to remember the names) from your class. i walked off ahead since i completed my task. you came over to me and asked for my name and introduced yourself. you wanted to be friend, but i told you to go away. i was being mean. we never became friends. i'm sorry. to serena: you were my truest friend in high school. i didn't cherish you enough. i remember when you would come sit beside me for chinese classes. we would then have amazing chats that always made my day. you'd always showed concern for me if you see me down. however, i'd changed. i began to succumb to social pressure. i avoided you for the wrong reasons. i needed to stay in the popular group. if i could be more sensible, i would have stood up for you against sean or shujuan. but i didn't, i lost a good friend. i'm sorry. to grace: before i write anything, i want to let you know that dad and mum misses you. you were their baby, you still are. i'm sorry i didn't treat you well enough. i'm sorry i'd squeezed your hand sometimes when i was angry. i was going through early puberty period, i couldn't control my emotions. i'm sorry i didn't bid you goodbye at the doorsteps on the last day of babysitting. you taught me an important lesson. always show love to the people i love. it's now the philosophy i follow in living my life. i'm angry with myself for how i treated you three. how i regret for my behavior. nonetheless, i'm glad i met you all. you made me a better man. may the wind speaks of my feelings. with love,
jackson. |
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| 3rd oct. |
[Oct. 3rd, 2008|11:39 pm] |
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today is a special day.
my day started out great. i woke up to this little message from max. i thought our not-so-established friendship was ruined after i told him about my not-so-smart confession. even though he only thanked me (in a cute way) for wishing him a happy birthday, it totally brightened my morning ha! HAHA sometimes i think i'm really pathetic.
i then went for a tan, chirpy. nothing special yet.
okay, here's the juicy part. when i got home, i came out to my parents. it was disastrous =/ i thought i was emotionally prepared, but i wasn't. imagine how it feels if your mum tells you that she would rather not have you as her child. i replied with a "fine, i will move out." what i got back was a "that's good." even though i'm calmly writing this right now, it was very disheartening and heart-breaking when i heard that ="(.
SO GUESS WHAT I DID?!
you might be thinking i would commit suicide and be dead by now. but no! i went for a date right after my mum told me to fuck off LOL. i met up with dennis. dennis, from germany. we didn't do much, but it was fun nonetheless =]. i know, my mum will kill me if she finds out.
alright, i had enough excitement for the day. goodnight earth. and happy birthday max!
sometimes i wish my mum knows how to be my mum. |
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| goodnight goodnight. |
[Aug. 23rd, 2008|02:09 pm] |
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hey everyone, it's been awhile. exams are over yay! but as of now i have no idea what i'll be doing for the holidays. had plans to go overseas, but mum refused. different choices of countries, but mum said it's either too expensive or dangerous =[ i don't wish to argue with her anymore and go back to the route we'd went through years ago. so i'm just gonna listen to her.
it's depressing everytime i think how un-flamboyant my life has become. ah, so much rants.
anyway, kind of late, but doubt many had heard this. new single from maroon 5!
i love maroon 5, just so you know =] |
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| a little me, penned by jackson. |
[Aug. 10th, 2008|02:28 am] |
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when i switch on my cell awhile ago, i felt this unusual coziness inside me. i then realized it was this tiny bright light which appeared in the dark room.
before i moved here, i'd never slept in the dark. i used to live in those old apartments in which the common corridors' lights shone brightly into our bedrooms. silly design i would say, but it was a part of me when i was a child. how i wish that my bedroom feels like it used to be. ah =]
on another note, i wonder why do some romance movies not end with their happily ever afters?
alright, goodnight sleepyheads :). |
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| today. |
[Jun. 6th, 2008|11:02 pm] |
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so i just had dinner with someone from the French royal family.
good game. |
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| life update. |
[Apr. 30th, 2008|11:16 am] |
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good morning upper east siders, jackson here.
yesterday was the first day of school, and it was really weird.
i was really excited. there was just so much i could talk about. what's more? two gorgeous white boys just joined the class! hello there jackson, first day is infatuation, second day is bore. i'll probably won't be as high next time when i see them.
spotted: D and N still hot and heavy in class. ok, maybe not as dirty as you think, but it'll soon happen. seriously, i'm still doubting darren's sexuality. look at the people he aggressively makes friends with. darren, you're so beyond comfortable.
talking about D, some people might know that i made peace with him. i wasn't kidding, but sorry it's over. just remembering how he laughed at melissa and rachel (he laughed at their flabby arms right behind them, and they weren't even flabby!), and the winnie incident today, really disgust me. he kept repeatedly insults people, even his own friends. short and muscled, he doesn't even look like someone with a huge penis!
i'm like so Blair Waldorf. but you know you love me.
xoxo jacksonme |
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| Matthew Shepard |
[Mar. 14th, 2008|07:17 pm] |
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I was really small then, and was too young to understand or even knew about this incident.
It's really depressing to see the world hates us. Matthew was such a confident person, and he had to die just because for who he was. He'll remain in my heart for a long time. Hopefully someday, his and the other gay victims' deaths will wake the world, make them realise we do need human rights too.
Read The Story
my heart goes out to Lawrence King and other victims as well. |
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| i love reading :*) |
[Mar. 6th, 2008|10:30 pm] |
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| | bouncy | ] |
today, when i was entering a bookstore trying to get a copy of GQ magazine, a friend asked me what kind of books i read.
i said none, which is the usual reply i give whenever anyone asked. but the fact is, i did read! HAHA i'm one hell of a sophisticated man you see. so i used to read a sophisticated book series in which no man does; Sweet Valley High: Senior Year.
HAHA i'm just too embarrass to tell anyone that okay! but i loooved it! i'd always thought the characters are real, non-fictional. i even tried sending emails to them! they were so cute, espcially Conner (i also thought the models on the covers are them). it was more of an erotic novel for me, sorry if i'm destroying your favorite childhood series ha.
yaya so i grew out of it. at least i didn't collect barbies, suckers.
p.s. if you can get me the whole series of sweet valley senior year, i love you! just kidding, tool. |
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| valentine. |
[Feb. 14th, 2008|08:34 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | indescribable | ] |
one mistake i made was to lie about being drunk after i told you i loved you, just because i was one hell of a stupid fucktard.
crazily, i still love you now (i don't know why but i still so wish you know).
happy valentine's,max. |
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